Sunday, November 29, 2009

Joshua's Headstone

Joshua's headstone was placed this past week.  This has brought a lot of closure to much of my grief for this while. I love the way it looks and everything about it.  The graphic on it is on a headstone close to his and that bothered me at first however I love the picture of Christ with the baby.  It brings me peace and I smile everytime I see it.  I appreciate the company that put the stone in.  They were very timely and did a great job doing things the way we wanted them done.  The stone has cement in front I can put things on if I want and also the stone is very wide on top so I can set things there also.  It has been four months since I last held my little son.  I have found much peace in the community of angel mom bloggers.  I have learned much from these graceful women who share the same or similar fate.  I have collected 37 pages of quotes, poems, song lyrics,and ideas.  I hope someday to be able to offer the same support they all have given me in my time of need.  I have enjoyed watching a few of them have their rainbow babies.   Here are a few photos of his headstone and the beautiful statue that stands guard over the baby area in the cemetary.  It is a peaceful place.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

The Secret Garden Meeting

So this meeting we would like to talk about where you are. Where are you at in your grief. Has it been years or just weeks since you lost your baby. How are you feeling. How do you hope you will feel in the future. Have you found any peace at all?

It has been three months since our beautiful son was born still.  Many days are wonderful full of joy and laughter and my grief has a safe place in my heart and home.  We have moved forward with a knowledge that our sweet son is safe in the arms of our Savior and our God.  Some days grief rears its ugly head and is overwelming.  I havn't had peoploe ask about my baby for a while and this week I had three parents whose children I taught last year ask me how my baby was.  It brought the pain of Joshua's absence to my mind again.  I feel very hopeful lately.  Hopeful for our future as a family.  I see us going about our wonderful family life with moments of grief,remembrance, and happiness.   I have found a great amount of peace in the thought of my son doing great things in the future.  I have always had a heathy understanding of dealth and this has helped my healing and peace.

My Angel Son